"The Lord will fight for you, you need only be still." Exodus 14:14
This verse of the Bible means more to me each day. So often I wonder why I feel like I am failing at my goals. Why I seem to be wading or drowning (depending on the day) in water? What am I doing wrong? Well, I am fighting battles bigger than myself. All I need to do is be still.
In this day of instant communication, phantom pocket syndrome (of which I suffer), and instagram-aholics (like myself...oh do you follow me on IG????) the thought of being still makes no sense. One might as well speak to me in only German for as good as that makes. Be still? Not react! Not engage in action in anyway! Am I sleeping?
Yoga is constantly teaching me to accept, and sit still in the silence within me. That silence is uncomfortable, and awkward...and peaceful...and so hard to sit in. But, it is were we hear the voice of God, and sometimes he tells us things we don't want to hear. So we ignore that silence spot within. This leads to many horrible situations, and problems. If only we had sat still. If only we hadn't been cowards...afraid of the silence...afraid of God.
Recently Jason bought Jesus Calling by Sarah Young for me while we were at the grocery. I had seen it on various instagram accounts I love, and this makes the second time I have picked it up. I read the August 31st entry and gave it to Jason to read. He said I had to have this book. And now I do.
So far everyday I wake early, make coffee, and read that days devotional. I then pray over it, journal. I read and write down the Bible verses. I pray. And, often, not always but often, something amazing happens in that silence. God speaks to me. He tells me important lessons, and I keep them with me. I am using these lessons to make me into the better person I always wanted to be. I am also attending mass at least once a week, but normally Jason and I go twice. If I had my own car I would be at the morning mass daily.
Do you sit in your silence? Do you have a faith? How long has it spoken to you? Have you ever had a time when you lacked faith? I did...maybe that will be my next post.